My Eyes Cant Believe What They Have Seen

okay, so i am officially a medical wreck.

ive been having these chest pains for about 6 months and i FINALLY decided to suck it up and get it checked out last wednesday. my family doctor told me i have asthma, maybe im just in denial.. but are you serious?! ive never had breathing problems in my life. but i do get unexplainable coughs and throat issues that he said could be caused by asthma. soooo i got this inhaler that you use 2 times a day and then an emergency one. so like 2 days after that i woke up and couldnt talk and had the worst headache and sore throat ever, so i was freaking out and thinking that maybe it was the inhaler medicine making me react funny.. so i went back to the doctor today and they put me on the good old zpack. i also have the joy of taking zyrtec everyday for my running and athletic problems. needless to say i bought a pill case and a pill/medicine alarm today and i feel like a grandma. On the bright side of all of this i got out of 12 hours of work, which will upset me when i get my paycheck.. but i do get to drink slurpees all day and watch mean girls.

I move into the phi sig house in a week and i am sooooo excited. i seriously love my sorority to death, everyone is so laid back and genuine. I think a lot of sororities lack that.

ABBY LYNN COMES HOME IN A WEEK!!! but i dont get to see her till the 6th. :( poop. then we are heading up north will bill to his cabin and attending the camp staff reunion which i am SOOOO excited for.

i also miss bryan a lot. i dont really get to talk to him as much as i did earlier in the summer. hopefully he will get back up here soon, i really want things to work out with us but theres no telling what will happen, im not psychic. obviously. im in such a weird place with that right now, when im out and about i dont know whether its okay for me to be dancing and talking to other guys, its awkward for me to say, well im not in a relationship until school starts. I really want to wait for him to get back, but at the same time i dont want to pass up other opportunities.

thats all.

So I tried to wake up early to study for my anatomy and physiology exam, but due to the fact that I stayed up late watching the bad girls club and a couple other shows, i was tired so decided it would be much more beneficial to sleep in. This decision ultimately resulted in me bombing my exam. good thing i don't need that class anymore. I need to force myself to study tonight but for some reason i feel like that won't happen.

So I'm pretty much obsessed with the series GREEK on ABC family and here are my thoughts of mondays episode.
i can't stand that rebecca and Kappy are together. Every episode i hope that Rebecca will unleash her soft and nice side but she never does. I'm glad Franny and Casey are friends again, i didn't want to think Franny was really that cruel, i think she just had a cow when all the shit with her presidency went down. but most of all i want Evan and Casey to get back together soooo bad. after the episode with the flashbacks I'm routing for Evan, before i wanted her to date Kappy again, but he seems to immature now.

IM GOING TO SAGNAST THIS WEEKEND!! :) sadly Kails wont be back till sunday.. but i guess that just gives me another excuse to go visit again.. i don't even know what i want to do when I'm there, i just know I'm really excited about it. I'll probably stay either with A.j. smay jay and Kim, or Megan. I think the Wilsons are going to be up north.

We raised almost $4,000 at our golf outing a last weekend for the NKF. thats after all expenses were paid, like renting out the Pohl Cat and providing food and prizes.

Do you ever wonder when it wont be acceptable for you to use facebook and myspace anymore? like where do you draw the line.. when you finish college? when you get married? when you have kids?? they are so addicting, i cant imagine life without them! to me facebook is like the new crack. myspace was like pot, the gateway drug. and now I'm addicted to something much more serious and time consuming.. facebook. thats so sad.

I finished my anthropology and family development exams today. tomorrow i have anatomy and physiology one on wednesday and finally my language disorders exam on thursday. I can't wait for this week to be over!!

nothing that great happened to day, it was pretty boring. I did a lot of studying and that was about it.

Saturday I'm going to saginaw for the first time in forever, probably over a year, to walk in the M.S. walk for megan. then kim and i are going to go up north for a few days to the new house so we can visit with the fam. I was supposed to be going to western with nicole, janine, and kyle for jessica's birthday but my parents are coming to help me move on thursday so i cant :( it makes me sad since i havent seen them in a long time.

By the way, who still uses this anyways?

friends only bitch.

Baby Ive got plans tonight

You dont know nothin about

Ive been sitting around way too long

Trying to figure you out

But you say that you'll call and you dont

And Im spinning my wheels

So Im going out tonight

In my red high heels





seriously, my big and i must be going through the same fucking thing right now cus this was her away message. i love her guts.

This is it now
Everybody get down
This is all I can take
This is how a heart breaks
You take a hit now you feel it break down
Make you stay wide awake
This is how a heart breaks

Don't you wanna go for a ride
Down to the other side
Feels so good you could cry
Now won't you do what I told you
I remember when you used to be shy
Yeah, once we were so fine
You and I why you gotta make it so hard on me

And I'm sorry but it's not a mistake
And I'm running but you're getting away

Tell me, what you thinking about

When you got me waitng patiently

And usually, I don't have to wait for nobody But there's something about you That really got me feeling weak And I'm trying to find the words to speak

Boy, I got my eyes on you

Tell me what you wanna do





My big has the best lyrics

i cant wait to go home this wednesday!!! i think im leaving around 1. i just want to get up to alpena and hang out with the fam and my dog..

its jarretts birthday today, and i made the executive decision to not call him, he doesnt really make an effort to be friends with me anymore anyways. i hate it when boys only pay attention to you when your convenient. and then when u finally decide ur done with their bullshit, they dont give a flying fuck if ur still friends or not. thats why ex boyfriends suck i guess.

classes next semester are going to be awesome. im done by 315 everyday so hopefully somebody will want to hire me now that my schedule isnt so effed up.

thats all i guess.. peace

This weekend = up north
cards
bon fires
singing
four wheeling
"golf carting" haha
boozing with the father
letting the dog hunt
rides in the woods
golfing
mom's cooking
piano

i love my cabin
i can see the trees getting bulldozed down the street where my new house is going to be.
im not to sad about moving anymore. i like it here and ill have an up north for my kids eventually if im lucky enough to ever have any. that will be fun.

what on earth made me think going home would be a good idea.. saginaw has been so lame.
going to the mall with kails was fun, watching the tigers was fun, and my party was for the most part fun.
you've gotta love it when alcohol raises your estrogen levels. i promise i wasnt that upset about the power getting turned off, or the other numerous things i was emotional about.. and im glad i have friends that understand that. so no more apologies. everything is fine, it always was fine.

and finally, if i was being a bitch to you, ud know if it was you.., im sorry because thats not who i am. i normally just keep my thoughts to myself and let people walk all over me, i know i do. im not sorry, however, for my feelings because they are valid. i still think i had every right to be upset.

and i will continue to host the best fucking parties around. especially since saginaw, is indeed.. lame, and there is never anywhere else to go.

now im back in M.P. where i belong. i love it here.

its official. i decided to hop back on the LJ train.

things going on with me right now..
i live in an appt. with kim, katie and nicole.. its bad ass
classes suck
i miss sagnast, but im in love with mount pleasant
i am recently a phi sig
i need my hair dyed
nicole got a kitten and my hands are now mutilated. but we love her, her name is coco.
i have yet to see a new episode of greys... this pains my heart but im a busy girl on thursday nights.
my room currently looks like a tornado hit it because i have been so busy
im going to uncle johns cider mill with my sorority tomorrow and i cant wait for some cider and donuts!
homecoming is this weekend. ill be gone
i dont know if i want to go to the heritage game or not yet. it will probably be pointless cus saginaw kids turned out to be lame and never do anything.
thats all.

Im thinking about using this thing again. i kind of miss it... but i have a feeling its pretty dunzo, leave me a message if u still look at it so i can make up my mind!

its been awhile huh?

-i live with nicole woods now, and its awesome
-central is a lot better for me this semester fo sho
-my classes are wayyyy easy, not that im complaining
-got my hairs cut

this weekend is going to be fab for 2 reasons. State and Wastern.
i get to visit 2 of my favorite girliesssss!! kails and abs :D


P.S. happy valentinesssss!!
i had 2! karen AND abs! beat that!

holler!! i work from 9pm till 5am tonight, it sucks. but i get to work with janine and janae so it should be a fun time! Red bull will be my new best friend by the end of the night.

what is the number 1 gift on ur personal christmas list?

i think mine is the ipod light show speaker stand :D




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exam week... soooo bored, so stressed. thank god for adderall.





yea, thats my 25 dollar sweatshirt. im proud of it.

ok, heres a fun fact, it is now officially dec. 10th. i have not slept since the night of the 7th. and im not a bit tired for some reason.

Im soooooo excited for this weekend!!!! kails, drew hauck a lougie, scot ferg turd, and i are going to boyne and to spend the night at kails gparents condo thinger. i HEART snowboarding season! boyne is sooo much better than apple i cant wait! Last time i went with nicole and janine and i got stuck in a big hole that none of us saw cus it started to snow. some stupid kids were digging to make a jump on a corner... dumb butts. so anyways pray that i dont kill myself, its been like 8 or 9 months since last winter.

i have to freaking move out before i leave. this puts a damper on my week, now i have to find someone to work for me on my first day back... i feel like a jack ass. i have to wait for the other girls to move out also b4 i can move in so that is ridiculous x 10 cus they arnt leaving till late friday. ill figure it out.

i just found my new favorite song... download it. it was on ashleys myspace and i heart her now.
although it could definatly do without the ending, i still heart it.
and yes, i realize it is a lesbianish song, but that doesnt mean i cant like it so fuck u. haha...

Gravy Train - Hella Nervous

You make me nervous, nervous, nervous!
Hella hella hella nervous, nervous, nervous.
You make me nervous, nervous, nervous!
Hella hella hella nervous, nervous, nervous.

'Cause you are long in the pants, short in the weiner, suckin' my muff like a vacuum cleaner.
Long in the pants, short in the weiner, suckin' my muff like a vacuum cleaner.
Long in the PANTS, short in the WEINER, suckin' my muff like a vacuum cleaner.
Long in the pants and short in the weiner, suckin' my muff like a vacuum cleaner.

theres just a taste of it, but u have to listen to it..

the freshman 15 is no joke, i finally lost the 8 pounds i gained for like the 3rd time now. DORM FOOD IS REDICULOUS. its like a fucking rollercoaster diet here. lol, as long as i dont gain it back again i will be a happy camper, but seriously, beware.

im going home for the day on saturday most likely so i can get back on the payroll for christmas :) sooo excited! i miss my hollister fam!

school sucks, i have 3 finals in 2 weeks, and 2 exams next week... AND a speech, 2 papers, and a painting. MY GOODNESS this is a stressfull point in the semester. I miss highschool.

<3 tam

im back at school
isnt that cool
dont front u fool
cus i freaking rule
like harry potter in a dual

u heard me

anything exciting happen this weekend?? i miss kailey!!







p.s. ur a loser if u didnt show up on saturday night. i think everyone would agree.

sooo i went shopping today for christmas presents and this is what happened. I bought my sister an outfit at wet seal, then spent the other 150 dollars on myself, haha oops! i got a pair of black boots, fur/tan boots, and some knit clogs, then a pair of jeans and a sweater. i liked it. i havent gone shopping in a while.

yesterday night i took janine out to see harry potter for part of her birthday gift. the movie was great, but on the way home we definatly got into an accident. i know u all think i was driving at this point so lets make one thing clear, i wasnt... the tuarus has not aquirred any new dents. the accident wasnt really janines fault though, we spun out on a slick patch of ice and hit a mail box and 3 trees. her poor car is totaled :( it was definatly one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. now if u didnt know, janine and i have been in a total of 3 accident together. 1 in which we were both 15 or 16 and kim was driving us to the movies, another when i was 17, she might have been 18 by then... when lee knepper hit me, and now this one. we are never alowed to drive together again.

call me 2 night.
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